May 07, 2004 - 12:30 PM

I’m a sick fuck.

I think you might know this already.

See, I’m pretty turned on by this one porn I got in the mail recently. I forget the name, but the name isn’t the most important thing when it comes to porn. Sure, they can be clever and funny or straight to the point. But it’s not something you, the home viewer, need to know in order to follow the story…it’s not like you’re going to recognize it or something.

And if you did, you’d be a sick fucker like me.

Now, back to my sick-fuckness…

Um, I guess I’m into “the degradation thing”.

And what does that mean?

See, cuz this recent porn that had me going…well, the premise is this: Nasty porn chicks venturing into nasty porn stores with a nasty camera man and getting a nasty porn store customer (not actors) into the nasty back room of the nasty porn store and then letting the nasty porn store customer (not actors) do nasty stuff to the nasty porn chick.

In my sick-fuckness, the primo scenario would be the above, but substituting the nasty porn chick for upstanding, nice girl.

Upstanding nice girl gets dirtied by nasty porn store customers (not actors).

Yes, this makes me feel very wrong inside.

It makes me feel wrong that my clit gets hard just thinking about this.

I’m thinking this certain fascination for this scenario stems from crossed wiring due to forced something or other in the backseat of a ‘67 Camaro by a gross older guy a long time ago when my breasts were still perky, my pubes were coming in nicely and the internet hadn’t been invented yet.

Cuz, normal people probably don’t find this type of thing “entertaining”.

Do you want to know the scene that turns me on the most?

Caution: This will just prove to you how gross I am and you may never want to look at me again. Last chance to turn back…..think about it….

Okay…

…wait a minute…did you REALLY think about it, cuz something tells me you just kept scrolling… I suggest you ponder one more time before continuing…really. Don’t say I didn’t warn you…

Allright…(as Quentin frequently says)

So, this nasty porn chick just finishes getting bent over and done by some nasty porn store customer (not actor) and she still has the splooge all over herself and in walks a scrungey old Mexican dude. He sees her all naked and starts rubbing his crotch through his jeans.

And the look on his face…

He motions and asks, “Touch? Touch?”

And the nasty cameraman gives him permission…all the while calling him a sick horny fuck lookat you you dirty fuck.

So as soon as he gets to touch, he pulls out his dick and starts full on jacking it.

And the look on his face…

And he’s touching and yanking and getting called all sorts of things by nasty cameraman….and she’s just amused by it all.

And then he unloads all over her ass.

And the look on his face…

And then he leaves the end.

Yeah…so, I’ll understand if you never want to speak with me again.

And half the time, well, more than half the time, I’m just writing this shit to myself so that maybe in the course of it all I can figure out a little bit about myself and what makes me tick and why oh why I feelthinkact the way I do so consider yourself in on my personal own therapy session and god forbid you’re a silent family member or friend who knows me in real life and I should just go shoot myself now.

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